So tonight I binged...not majorly (my daily intake was still only 590) but still, I binged. I felt so gross. Once again I was bent over the toilet with a toothbrush down my throat, and once again I had no luck. I swear if I could only purge...sigh.
Anyways, I did exercise for 2 hours tonight, so maybe that made up for it a little bit.
Had a VERY interesting discussion with my friend KR today. She told me she never stopped purging. That she just started restricting to 500 cals a day. Part of me was scared for her - I mean, I know the hell where I start crying because I ate an apple. But the other half of me was so...HAPPY. Like I have a partner in crime. We are going to go buy diet pills on Friday. I'm so so so excited. Also I need to find a way to buy a cheap scale and hide it in my room. I NEED A SCALE. Seriously.
At the doctor today I weighed in at 114 lbs. EW. 14 pounds to lose...I think. I wonder now if 100 lbs will be enough. Maybe I should shoot for 95?
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Dude, stop trying to purge! Not working, and so not worth it.
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